Tracking my efforts to beat Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), aka CFIDS, aka CFS

Tracking my efforts to beat Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), aka CFIDS, aka CFS

Monday, May 21, 2012

Unpredictability of crashes - the upside

I'm starting to realize that recovery from crashes can be just as unpredictable as their onset.

Last week I was crashed all week--which, for me, means barely being able to drag myself into work and back home again.  Whether this crash was a reaction to the increased dose of Equilibrant, or just another crash, I'll address in another post.

On Thursday, my wife, daughter and I boarded an airplane for a weekend trip to San Francisco.  The trip was to involve a wedding on Saturday, a family reunion on Sunday, and the usual rigors of travel.

So there I was in the airport on Thursday, in the midst of a crash, thinking that my prospects for pulling out of the crash seemed dim.  Some people say you have to be a little crazy to travel with an infant, and here I was attempting it in the middle of a crash.  It seemed so many factors were working against me:

-Already in a crash
-Lugging baggage through long airport concourses
-About to face the crash-inducing altitude of air travel the dirty cabin air
-...followed by 2+ days of driving all over the Bay Area.

But to my surprise, the crash gradually began to lift starting Saturday morning.  By the time the wedding began on Saturday afternoon, I felt pretty decent.  Of course, drinking and dancing were out of the question, but I found that I didn't miss them as much as I'd expected.  I even attended the informal after-party at a local bar.  Still, I thought, the odds are that this will catch up to me the following morning.

Well, it didn't, and I felt just as lively at Sunday's family reunion.  We're back home in Southern California now and the rigors of the trip don't seem to have taken a toll on me.  I don't know what to make of it.  Every time I think I'm starting to figure out ME's patterns, its cause/effect relationships, it surprises me.

For now, all I can do is remember to be thankful and to enjoy every second of these times when I'm not crashed.

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