I'm usually aware of my sick-iversary (June 5) as it approaches and then I blog about it on the day it happens. I like to use the anniversary date to reflect on the "big picture"-- to discuss where am I in my treatment plan and what I think are reasonable goals. This year I completely forgot about it until yesterday. I suppose that says something about how I'm now accustomed to being sick all the time.
I no longer hold out any hope that I will somehow spontaneously get better. That doesn't even seem like a glimmer of a possibility. I've also now tried just about every major treatment that ME patients use for ME (at least among those that are affordable to me and that I've deemed worth the risk), and none of them have led to great improvements, although some may have helped pause or slow the decline. So the conclusion is: If I'm going to improve significantly, it will take a medical breakthrough. For that reason, I find myself visiting the ME message boards less frequently because I don't think it takes daily monitoring to know about a major breakthrough. If there is ever a big exciting discovery, it will be impossible to miss. There will be articles popping up on Facebook and other ME new sources which will spread throughout the community virally. So now I wait....
